"Talent"

I'm told by family members all the time that I should go to art school (been there done that), but whenever I look through my sketchbooks it's really all just pictures of Kaku (and sometimes Lucci)... so here's the latest installment in my Kaku portfolio.

All of these were drawn in Starbucks while I was waiting for friends / supposed to be researching graduate programs...

And, in honor of our recent cold weather:

Now if only it would snow here.

I'll replace these with real scans at some later date and maybe a colored version of something who knows...

Real World harassment.

Lately I've been asked by an artist to (potentially) illustrate the cover of a novel he's publishing.  I personally don't think my artwork or art style suits the subject (murder) but it's his prerogative if he wants to hire me or not.

That said the idea of having this sort of exposure when I'm not as developed as an artist as I want to be, slash the idea of commitment to any one project is intensely stressing me out (among other things) and I've been spending my time in Starbucks doodling things that have nothing to do with the book concept whatsoever.

This was the concept I did for the artist at his request.

And this is what I've been doing in Starbucks all day, and honestly, what I would much rather be doing with my time (and what I believe I am much more suited for). Also, I can't get a straight answer advice-wise from anyone who has had experience in dealing with these types of situations which only succeeds in stressing me out more.

I'm downing coffee and spending money like a madman, I am not a responsible person when I'm stressed at. all. and the only thing I can think of to solve it is sleep - something I can't do right now because of how panicked I am.

Can December be over yet?